It's hard to describe yourself to someone else without sounding either too good or too humble. I will do my best to walk the fine line of reality.
I am a 47 year old mom of three beautiful and very strong-willed children. My oldest and youngest are girls, my middle is a boy (and every inch a boy.) I am the wife of a wonderful, but yes - you guessed it - very strong-willed husband. I fit into this family well because I too am very strong willed. We all have opinions and much of the time they are differing ones - so debate and attitudes are frequent occurrences in our home. I keep telling myself that this is a good thing because we are raising leaders and not followers, but it is very hard to raise leaders (because they want to lead you!)
I have been married for over 20 years and have been a mother for 18 years. I was very pleased to become a mother, but very lost too. I am not what I would call an ideal mother. I struggle with the loss of independence that motherhood brings and I sometimes find myself resentful of all the sacrifices that motherhood forces upon me. I wasn't prepared for the constant feelings of uncertainty and worry that having children brought to my life. I felt completely unqualified to be a mother and still often do. I have three children who have managed to be completely different from each other (aside from the strong-willed part.) I still wonder if I am raising them well.
Then there is just me. I am a very creative person, deep thinker, loyal friend and stubborn as the day is long. Ask anyone who has ever really known me. I am like a dog with a bone when it comes to something that I really believe in. I don't give up or give in very easily. In my younger years I could hold a grudge for a very long time. Now I just don't have the energy for it (most of the time.) My poor husband usually gets the brunt of it when I do. Thankfully he holds very short grudges.
I am a Christian in the most literal sense of the word. I believe in and follow Christ. I am not perfect and I often fail, but I believe that I am forgiven fully and completely because of what Jesus did for me on the cross. I believe that this is what sustains me even on my worst mom-days. The only completely unconditional love I have ever known has come to me through Christ. He is the reason I can be vulnerable, because I know that He always accepts me just the way I am and that gives me the courage to share my flaws and struggles with you.
So there you have it. Me, as told by me. I'm glad that you visited this site and I hope that it is a help to you on your journey as 'mom.'